1 Year or 7 !

A YEAR or 7!

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Wow, its been:
a) 1 year since Tucker relapsed
b) 7 years since Tucker’s first cancer
c) A lot of years since mom’s hair started going grey
d) All of the above.

I can’t believe it. Time has sure flown by.
It feels like so much more time has passed since we heard the heart-stopping news of
a) Your son has cancer again- this time in his spinal fluid & brain
b) Your son has cancer
c) “Mom, your grey hair is growing so much faster”… (gee, wonder why).
d) All of the above.

So many highs and lows, so much good and so much bad, I’m so grateful for:
a) Talented & wonderful Oncology doctors at Primary Children’s Hospital
b) Kind & warm nurses in the clinic.
c) Hair dye that is inexpensive & covers the grey
d) All of the above.

I look back on the:
a) Past year
b) Past 7 years
c) Past hair color choices I’ve made
d) all of the above
…. And I think to myself- wow I feel:
a) So old & tired
b) SO MUCH love for friends & family
c) Like grey hair should come back in style- it would be cheaper for me.
d) All of the above

I just can’t imagine what our life would be like had Tucker’s cancer not come back. I think back to the 3 years he was in remission from his first cancer and I feel like I really took that time for granted. I should have done more, I could have done more- but never ever did I expect for us to go through this again- but you never really see these things coming. We were sure blessed with a child who:
a) Can take this cancer- again- & kick its butt-again.
b) Laughs & smiles daily & is so grateful for life.
c) Doesn’t laugh- too much- when he spots mom’s grey hairs..
d) all of the above.

There are no words out there to tell all of our friends & family how much your love and support means to us. We never, ever would have made it this far without you. From the perfect stranger who I will never meet- to my friends & family who have been there from day 1 of 1st cancer over 7 years ago, to all of you I say:
a) Wow- you are all so amazing- how did I get so lucky?
b) You are wonderful and we are so grateful for everything!
c) Come on, go grey with me!
d) All of the above… (ok, I know “C” won’t float..LOL)

I have been having a hard time this past month with our year anniversary coming up- I didn’t really realize that’s what was wrong with me until just one day it hit me- ITS ALMOST BEEN A YEAR or 7, depending on what cancer anniversary we are celebrating. What would our life been without cancer:
a) Stress free & full of butterflies and rainbows
b) Cheaper
c) No grey…
d) all of the above (except C… I don’t think I would have gotten away from the grey… maybe it wouldn’t’ have grown so fast though without the cancer stress LOL)

I know this is an odd post… but I had a dream about how I wanted to write this (yes, I type in my dreams.. I’m so weird)…. And every statement and point that I wanted to make applied to more than one cancer.
In January 2005 our life changed forever- my little 4 year old started the battle for his life- In January 2010- our life changed forever again- my BIG 10 year old continued the battle for his life. I never could have made it this far without:
A) The most amazing husband & partner ever, thank you Justin for being so wonderful.
B) All the angels who have come into our life- we have angels that we have never even meet! Angels from as far away as Alaska have made an impact in our life.
C) Sales at Wal-mart on hair dye, thank you.
D) All of the above- and more, much more.


All the answers were D in case you were wondering
We are gearing up for another chemo filled year, and I’m so grateful to have you all here with me- even if you not “here”. We feel your prayers… we feel your love- keep it coming.

Happy anniversary… 1 year or 7 years… its an awesome anniversary as long as Tucker is here, battling the cancer- I’ll take every single cancer anniversary coming our way. We will beat this- we will win this, we will celebrate every year, celebrate life.
Here’s to Tucker.
WAY TO GO MAN, KEEP IT UP!
We love you-
Love mom & dad-
Amber & Justin.